I can’t believe it’s been 11 years since this single premiered on MTV, Logo, VH1 and a bunch of other channels, radio stations, and like…MySpace, I guess?
It was the first time I had ever been on network TV or signed to a major label, and so many people were projecting things onto me at the time, working to mold me, and trying to help fit me into the big game somewhere. Anyone who was tuned in to my nonsense back then will recall, I did not respond well.
“Feed Me To The Wolves” was my first big break, but at its core it’s a song about me trying to survive cocaine addiction, and this video is the last time I would ever be filmed coked out of my mind or drunk. The fact that it was so celebrated at the time — that I was so celebrated in that state of actively, messily, visibly spiraling towards imminent death — seems so curious to me now, over a decade into my recovery.
I was blowing through an 8 ball of coke and drinking at least a fifth of vodka every day, and I showed up to my big break accordingly. I spent $67,000.00 on cocaine in 2007 alone. I was terrible and mean and people thought it was hilarious and marketable.
The crazier I acted, the more folks wrote about me and booked me for shows; and the stranger things got on and off stage at those shows, the more people offered me TV gigs and would come to watch me spin out…but what so many people ended up watching was me canceling performances because I couldn’t remember my words, bailing on appearances at the last minute because my voice quit working (from smoking crack), having my nose begin to die and nearly fall off my face, several public, well-documented overdoses, and eventually (thankfully) disappearing into hospitals and rehabs, emerging well (ish) nearly two years later.
I wish I could go back in time and tell this sad dude to go get help before help is forced upon him in emergency rooms just 18 months later; To not worry about blowing his one shot by pausing the career clock because he ends up blowing his one shot in the end anyway; And that even that’s bullshit because there is no such thing as just one shot, in life or in music.
All that said, I am so grateful for this song, for the peculiar way it continues to find its way into the world all these years later, and how it has ultimately made so many things possible for me, my career, and my life.
I had the best time today at 30 Rock in New York! Thanks to Mary Emily O’Hara for being the best host ever. NBC News is so lucky to have you as a reporter!
BrooklynVegan.com featured me on their site this week! Check it out HERE and get tickets for the NYC show at Webster Hall on this July’s queer music summer tour benefit on the featured performances page on Brooklyn Vegan HERE.
Tickets for the Accidental Bear Queer Music Summer Tour Benefit For LGBTQ Mental Health Services & Suicide Prevention with Logan Lynn, Big Dipper, Conquistador, Rica Shay and more are on sale now!
DATES: 7/5 – Beatbox, San Francisco, CA
7/7 – Los Globos, Los Angeles, CA
7/11 – Mississippi Studios, Portland, OR
7/14 – Chop Suey, Seattle, WA
7/19 – Webster Hall, New York City, NY
Music Review Tuesday went really well for me and my new record yesterday on the “Part of my Evolution” music & pop culture blog from New York City. “I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday” got 5 stars! — That’s 5 out of 5 possible, people. Count ’em. They also linked to Q Center which made me smile.
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They had some really nice stuff to say about my Producer Bryan Cecil as well. Read what they think about it (and check out some super creepy Ray Gordon photos of me from this past Summer) by clicking HERE or keep reading below. There has been all sorts of love from the East Coast this week!
“If there’s one thing Logan Lynn can do well, it’s saying a whole lot with few words and putting them into seriously addictive melodies. His latest album – and perhaps final album, I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday, is not only skillfully written and produced, it’s fun as fack! Probably not something you’d expect from reading the album title, but if you know Lynn’s work, this isn’t strange.
I’ve always appreciated Lynn’s fearless writing style. Somehow, that fearlessness really came to the forefront in this album. Bryan Cecil’s approach in production has a lot to do with it. While Lynn’s previous album, From Pillar To Post gave the impression that he was experiencing things in different places, I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday sounds like he’s home thinking about his day or week… or year. Maybe even making a few angry phone calls and leaving some straightforward voicemails.
All in all, I’d say I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday could well be one of my favorite albums of the year. Infectious melodies, 80’s-inspired synthy fun, and bold lyrical content. To top it off, all proceeds from this album will be used to benefit Portland’s Q Center. And that ladies and gentlemen, is how you say goodbye to your fans. Read the rest of this entry »
NYC music blog Boom Boom Chick reviewed my new record “I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday” today. They dig it. You can read what they had to say HERE or just keep reading below…
“Portland’s finest indie-electronic musician, Logan Lynn, is back with a new record. ‘I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday‘ was produced by Bryan Cecil and is much darker than his previous release, ‘From Pillar to Post‘. That, and it sounds as if it were sent here straight from 1985. The synthpop sound suits Lynn’s voice and the subject matter (which deals with alienation and disillusionment) well. ‘Velocity’ could have been straight off of one of my mother’s 1980s Latin freestyle records and is the album’s definitive dance record; other standouts include ‘Tennis Whites’, ‘Quickly As We Pass’, and ‘Fly Me Through’, which wins the award for best chorus: ‘So get on board or / Shut your fucking mouth / You just shut your fucking mouth / Shut your fucking mouth’.
Currently, 100% of proceeds from ‘I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday’ go to charity so we encourage you to purchase it by clicking HERE. Physical copies will be made available on December 28th, 2010.”
Nice one, huh? Bryan Cecil came in a time machine from the past to produce this evil dance record for me. It’s real, people. He’s the devil himself.
I just heard word from the kids at MTV that my new video “The Last High” will be making its Network Television World Premier into MILLIONS of homes one week from Sunday (on February 21st at Midnight) on their Logo Channel‘s weekly video countdown show “NewNowNext“! Set your Tivo! There are tons of repeat showtimes from there, but if you wanna catch it as it hits the airwaves, Sunday the 21st it is!!!
This is going to be the 5th video of mine that they have picked up since 2006. Pretty exciting. I love Logo!!! To watch me hosting “NewNowNext” at MTV Studios in NYC a year ago, CLICK HERE.
You can watch the video just below as well, but there’s something about seeing it on TV that is WAY more fun. Be sure to tune in!!!
One of the remixes from Volume 3 of my “Blood In The Water” Remix EP Collection got some attention from the “Boom Boom Chik” Electronic Music Blog this week! To check out all the nice stuff they had to say and have a listen, CLICK HERE.
Here’s a bit from the post to tide you over…
From “Boom Boom Chik”: (2/3/2010)
“New York based music collaborators Jean Goode and Teddy! of The Asteroid Belt are still doing their thing, this time having remixed Logan Lynn’s “Write it on My Left Arm” off of his 2009 release, From Pillar to Post. Lynn is a singer-songwriter from Portland, Oregon who delves in different genres ranging from folk to electronic. The remix is a wonderful listen; the musical growth of Jean Goode and Teddy are evident in the fluidity of the track, something that is made possible only when the instrumental arrangements are solid and complement the vocals (as is the case here). Upon hearing the track I thought of the ubiquitous Imogen Heap and the less well known Milosh, two artists who are pretty good to be associated with if you ask me.” -Radio Morillo, “Boom Boom Chik”
Nice, huh? Go Jean and Teddy!!! Ink and Pixels, baby. Ink and Pixels!!!
NYC Glam Pop group “Naked Highway” did a remix of my song “Bottom Your Way To The Top” for Volume 2 of my Remix EP Collection, “Blood In The Water” (which is available now ONLY when you buy “From Pillar To Post” from the store section of this site and will be available everywhere else later this year).
It’s a NEW YEAR, so I’ve been thinking it’s time for a NEW FREE SONG. A while back an up-and-comer in the electronic world who goes by “Flufftronix” remixed my song “Feed Me To The Wolves”. It’s really cool. For more info on “Flufftronix”, CLICK HERE.
Now, download “Feed Me To The Wolves (Flufftronix Remix)” FREE via the widget below. Yee-Haw!