OK, so…the title of this post is a bit dramatic and unfair. 2009 actually brought with it some really amazing things. My new record “From Pillar To Post” was released and was received better than my little brain could have imagined…First by the press, then by all of you guys. It’s been really great to finally get to share where I’ve been since 2007 with you after going into hiding shortly after I got signed with “Beat The World”. Thanks so much for listening, for helping to spread the word about my tunes, and for reminding me constantly why it is that I write songs in the first place.

On the flipside to all of this professional joy, the past year has been quite a journey for me personally. 2009 was the first year since 1994 where no Alcohol or Cocaine entered my body. Like…NONE. I got clean in the beginning of 2008, so it was tainted by a couple of months of freebasing and I didn’t quit drinking until December of ’08…but this year was clean, start to finish. I’m nearing the 2 year anniversary of my last journey to cracked-out partytown…I know for normal people that doesn’t seem like a very big deal, but for me and for anyone who has ever known or loved me, it’s noteworthy. I’m finally at a point with the getting well that it’s not such a constant struggle to function. All I really have to say about that is…FUCK YES!!! FINALLY!!!!!

At this point, I have torn down every part of my old life and am about to start over. After over 6 years of moving in one direction together, my partner and I split up in July and I’ve spent much of the past 6 months since just regrouping, catching my breath, mourning the loss of that companionship (and that of one of my dogs, Spike, who went to live with “other dad” when he left), and making a new plan. I made decisions this year that kicked me WAY out of my comfort zone and have left me feeling vulnerable and beyond frightened at times, but I’ve managed to navigate through and have finally hit the light at the end of the dark tunnel. I feel great sorrow for this loss in my life, and it is a neon example of how some things which I broke when I was high are just unfixable, no matter how hard anyone tries. I wish him nothing but the greatest happiness and hope the new year brings peace and healing for both of our sad, broken hearts.

That same week in July I went to stay with my Mom and Dad in the Oregon desert. We spent the first part of the week in a raw emotional state, talking out old festering wounds and repairing cracks in the foundation of our family unit that had been made long ago. We cried for the better part of the week, but managed to come back together at some point while I was there. That time with them is the most beautiful experience I’ve had in my life so far and things are forever changed as a result of those moments together.

I’ve made a lot of new friends this year and am really excited to be starting a new decade this week with all of you in tow. I feel light again, like things are clearing up. I am determined to bring my personal life up to speed with my professional life this year…gonna make some happy stuff happen!!!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYBODY!!! See you on the 7th at Doug Fir in Portland! It’s gonna be a really good show. “Cars & Trains” and “The Gentry” rule the skool.

xxLL

Fun. The director of my “Bottom Your Way To The Top” video (Jeffrey McHale) just sent me a text saying we had won this “Queer Video Of The Year” award over at the “Catch Fire” Music, Video and Pop Culture Blog. They announced it today.

You can check it out HERE and see blinking gold stars by my face while you read it, or you can see what they had to say about it below.

From “Catch Fire” (12/21/2009)

“WE HAVE A WINNER”

“The winner of the first Catch Fire Queer Video Music Award is Logan Lynn with his video “Bottom Your Way To The Top” directed by Jeffrey McHale. The result couldn’t be clearer (43 out of 79 votes), thanks folks for voting and congrats to Mr. Logan! Click here for the final poll results and here for the video.”

Portland Electronic Glam Metal band “Neapolitan Beard” made an insane remix of my song “Bottom Your Way To The Top” for Volume 3 of my “Blood In The Water” Remix EP Collection. They are making quite a name for themselves around town as wild partyboy circus sideshow performers. I adore them.

Have a listen to “Bottom Your Way To The Top (Neapolitan Beard’s “Space War” Remix)” below—>

YOU CAN PICK UP ALL 4 VOLUMES OF THE REMIX EP COLLECTION FOR FREE IF YOU PICK UP “FROM PILLAR TO POST” FROM THIS SITE NOW. OTHERWISE, THEY WILL BE HAVING THEIR PROPER RELEASE EVERYWHERE ELSE AFTER THE NEW YEAR!

The “Nerdy Frames” Music & Pop Culture blog from Auckland, New Zealand picked up on my new video and ran a feature on me today. You can also download some FREE MP3’s of my songs from their site!!!

CLICK HERE TO CHECK IT OUT!!!

Fun. It’s amazing to me that people all over the world are getting my music delivered to their ears these days. Go interwebz, huh? Also, go Beat The World & Caroline/EMI Records for getting it out there on a grand scale! I’m a very lucky boy. Worldwide distribution, baby! WOOT.