On Saturday I woke up to the news of singer Christina Grimmie being gunned down and killed at a meet and greet with fans after her show. On Sunday I woke up to the news of extreme LGBT violence by way of the deadliest shooting in U.S. history.

I feel sick and afraid. I want to cancel all of my upcoming public appearances and find a closet to go back inside of. But I cannot. And I will not. I will not be made quiet by fear. I will not let American apathy dictate my path. And I will never stop hoping that change will come. Never. At times like this it’s important to remember that somewhere in the world, good is still happening. Cute, simple things are still real during ugly, complicated days.

I wrote this song “Go There When You Want To Be Loved” about my own feeling that there is no safe place for me in the world at times as a gay man, as a person living with persistent mental health struggles, and as a public person known for both. These lyrics feel like the only words I can find for how I am feeling, so I am releasing it now as a fundraiser for my queer family in Orlando.

Keep laughing. Keep kissing. Keep dancing. Keep loving each other. Keep fighting for your place in the world. Gay is great and so are you.

100% of the proceeds of this single will go to support recovery efforts in Orlando’s LGBT community. Click HERE to purchase your copy.

This year I attended Q Center’s Annual Gala fundraiser for Portland’s LGBTQ Community with Ruth Radelet, lead singer of Chromatics (and muse to Karl Lagerfeld). We are old friends and it was a really fun, fancy night. Portland Society Page featured the event and ran a photo of the two of us being fancy and having fun HERE.

Below are some of the highlights from our evening…