2025 was a portal. I am still coming up for air after all of it. There were no small things this year. Just an endless stream of stuff too big to understand, moving too fast to hold onto for very long.

I started the year engaged to a man who I loved very much. Calling off the wedding and saying goodbye to that relationship was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Glad I did it. I still wear the ring on my other hand sometimes around the house which sounds very sad but is really just because I designed those rings myself and I love a big diamond. I do like being single again. Been thinking that, while the engagement definitely wasn’t right, perhaps the ring was.

Around that same time, my sweet friend killed himself. I loved him and really fucking needed him here. It was violent and horrible and I have just continued to get up every single day and get to work on things that matter to me but, in the background, my world came to a bit of a stop. We were supposed to get brunch but instead he died and I have spent the past year trying to speak all of the words that have been stuck in the back of my throat ever since. I can’t seem to get them out. Maybe next year. In the midst of all of this, I wrote an album about the experience of these really important relationships in my life ending. The night we finished recording it, the studio where I make records burned down.

Just unimaginable loss all around me for a few months there. I did my best to show up curious every day. Work. Laugh when something is funny. Cry every time it wasn’t. Build. Create. Try to help wherever I can. Stay soft. Forgive. Let go. Look for goodness everywhere.

It’s amazing what a person can accomplish when they trade their personal life and free time for work.

And I did find the goodness I was looking for along the way.

Zoomed in on my own family, kicked off production on a new film, produced a capsule apparel collection with my friends, helped a bunch of bands blast off into new eras, raised a ton of money for the community, launched an LGBTQ+ talent agency, became partner at another, left my longtime record label to join another (not announced yet), and ultimately laughed more this year than I cried. TV was solid. Couple good movies. Some incredible songs found my ears. Adopted the world’s sweetest, cutest dog. My babies! So much tenderness.

Love you. Probably miss you. Appreciate the kindness. I hope the portal ultimately brought you somewhere beautiful and that the universe is giving you what you need, even if that is feeling hard still.