We’re off until May 4th but here I am sitting in a chair that makes me look like I am a giant.

(Reader: I look like I am a giant because I am a giant)

Also I have had all of this stage lighting in my bedroom for months while we rehearsed and today the lighting team finally came and picked it all up in advance of secret things we’re announcing soon!

I got very sweaty and dirty but it feels like a mansion in here now. V pumped.

For this current Portugal. The Man tour, we have launched the PTM NIGHT OUT initiative, in support of disabled fans requiring ADA access.

Portugal The Man’s 34-date North American tour alongside alt-J has been centered on the concept that ‘Everyone Deserves a Night Out’ and is designed with ADA accessible needs fans in mind. We had hundreds of entries and each winning ticket holder has been treated as a VIP guest of PTM; provided with transportation to and from the show, concierge escorts throughout the venue, as well as gifted merchandise and a special meet-and-greet with Eric Howk and other members of the band.

All of us on Team Portugal. The Man have experienced how difficult it can be for someone to get around venues in a wheelchair and we are placing emphasis on the importance of making live music accessible for fans through the #PTMNightOut program, in partnership with Accessible Festivals, as another step towards changing that.

LIVE MUSIC SHOULD BE SAFE, FUN, AND ACCESSIBLE FOR EVERYONE. ♿️

More to come…

AEG Presents // (📸 Maclay Heriot)

This month I am celebrating 14 years in longterm recovery from a 16 year addiction to cocaine and alcohol that nearly took my life many times.

I am really happy to be here. 🖤

For the first decade after I stopped trying to hurt myself, I had these incredible moments of shame and guilt and weird panic take me over constantly, just about having been this person for so long — and I still sometimes do.

Like…how did I ever think anything I did, wrote, sang, or said in the 90s and early 00s was ok? How could I have hurt myself so much and cared so little for other people?

I do my best to stay compassionate with myself, and so many of you have shown me the same over the years.

If you are someone I hurt, humiliated, or discarded somewhere along the way, I’m truly sorry. All I can really say is that hurting people hurt people, and I was hurting for many years.

Every single change I’ve made in my life has been made in the direction of my knowing I needed to do better, be better, and ultimately take responsibility for the entire experience of having been me this whole time — both as a very sick person, and now having been a very well person for many years.

I was talking to John from Portugal. The Man a few months ago about how so many things would never have happened if I had been successful in killing myself. One of the things I listed was that we would never have met. He very kindly let me know that we had met before I was well and that he just had never brought the experience up because clearly I did not remember and he knew I had been through a lot.

I have no recollection of this, and so many other experiences from that time; But I know that many of you retain these memories of me from before, and I am so grateful to John and every single one of you who have been willing to meet me again over the years, and have made space for me in your lives since.

Thank you to everyone who tried to keep me safe or showed me love during those early years — and thank you all for giving me the chance to be who I am now. It is your kindness that has carried me through.

RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE.