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Hey everybody!

It’s October and I don’t know about you, but I’m turning 30 this month. I’m excited about this birthday over all other birthdays that I can remember. I am thinking this is maybe because I spent more than a few years thinking I would never reach this age due to the chemical tailspin I was in for 16 years. Most people who knew me in real life during this time had a similar feeling about my longevity, I’m sure. I am SO excited that I was wrong about this. I’m grateful that I have made it out of that waking nightmare alive and am pleased as punch to be here with all of you now, healthy and humbled with both feet planted firmly on the GROUND.

I figured I’d give away a song that fits in with the theme this week…

“The Dotted Line” is Track 13 on my new record (the final track) and was written while I was in a rehab center during the first part of 2008 finally getting my shit together. I put it last on the record because it felt to me like a little burst of hope at the tail end of documenting a rather difficult journey. It’s about picking up the broken pieces and putting them back together and, ultimately, letting go.

I hope you all find yourselves in a place of truth in your own experiences, whatever your truths may be…however wonderful or painful, forgettable or memorable. This is one piece of mine. Thanks for letting me share it with you.

🙂

xo
LL

So…OH MY GOD. I never get sick, but found myself completely taken down last Sunday with the seasonal flu (thankfully, not of the Swine variety) and am just now, 4 days later, starting to feel like myself again.

I spent the week in bed…on the couch, actually. While I was laying here, once the horror of the first couple days of it passed, I was able to think about stuff and write a bit. That’s ALL I was able to do, actually, as moving around was pretty much out of the question until today and I ran out of DVD’s and stuff on TIVO about 20 hours in.

One of those thoughts I had was how lucky I am to have my health. I regret being so hard on this body of mine for so many years…I wish I had learned much of what I’ve taken to heart over the past two years a decade ago, but that’s not how the story goes and I feel grateful to be here in one piece, healthy and present in my life today.

I like the idea that things can always move forward…that I can take my human experience and change its course at any moment. I want so badly to make right the things I have wronged in my short time on this earth, and find myself in a constant state of atonement, not just with the universe, but with myself as well.

I am turning 30 in two weeks & I’m really grateful to be here with all of you…HEALTHY and on the road to some brighter place. Oh, and I recommend that you go get a flu shot. That shit was GNARLY.