Nov 21, 2021
About this Christmas song…
This Christmas song of mine that Kill Rock Stars just put out was written about how our government and lots of our friends and neighbors failed us all over the last couple of years. We recorded it in the midst of the first wave of the pandemic where it really seemed like absolutely everyone I know and love was going to die.
Many did.
I think the holidays are traumatizing for a lot of people, especially now, given the scale of the loss and grief of this time we are living through. There are a bunch of queer and trans people who have already lived through a pandemic that brought suffering into our lives and wiped out entire generations of our LGBTQ+ elders — so I figured there should be a Christmas anthem for us, too. Fuck Christmas, ya know? Especially now.
I channeled all of my exhausted, queer rage into this beast in the studio and I know it was really cathartic for my whole team as we were in there making it. There has been so much to scream about, and not enough people screaming. It felt good to let some out, and to have a place to put it all.
For the video we brought together imagery that evokes these feelings I’ve been having around all of the loss, violence, misinformation and trolling so many of us have been experiencing, then we juxtaposed that with imagery of gay joy and sex and wildness from the before times.
Remember making out with random dudes?
I do.